April 04, 2016


I haven't harmed myself badly since October 24, 2015. That's quite long ago and I'm happy about that.
I'm afraid that I will relapse again, because everyone around me (my mom, brother, other brother, sister, gf of my brother, 90% of my class) is annoying me. They act like they do everything perfectly and I'm doing everything wrong. If my sister gets 70% on a test, everyone is happy with it, but if I get 70% on the same test, everyone says that I didn't study good enough or that I could have done better. I'm so done with everyone.
I want to walk away, but the only options to go to are:
            Living with my dad:                                     Go to my best friend:
-far from school and my best friend              -I can't stay for a long time
-my brother and his gf live here too              -I don't know her parents and                                                                                                        brothers that well

So that won't work. I'll be sharing my room with my sister for some more years then.
That's about everything for today! (I hope I can handle the urge for sh)

Bye potat's!

August 23, 2015

Hey ^-^

I almost wanted to say my name, but this is my anonymous blog.
I'm a Dutch 14 year old girl and this is sort of my 'diary'.
I'm not good at expressing my feelings, (especially face to face conversations are really difficult) and that is probably one of the reasons I am/was depressed.
It has been a quite long time since I cut myself, but I still scratch or hit myself.
I've had a depression-blog on Instagram, but I sort of deleted it. (it's a fan account now)
That's why I made this blog, I want somewhere to vent. 
I'm quite awkward and I'm coping with (social) anxiety.
That's about everything I can tell about myself, if you have any questions, just ask me something in the comments, send me a mail, or ask for my Instagram or Tumblr.

Hugs from me!

Ps. if you found any grammar or other mistakes, just tell me, so i can learn from it! :)